Once again I apologize for being M.I.A. Aside from the job hunting stress, there's been a family emergency regarding one of my Aunts. She reconnected with an ex from 20+ years ago, they started dating, and he turned out to be an emotionally abusive and verbally abusive loon. Said relative is also Bipolar II, so you can imagine how well that helped her state of mind.
Anyway, the ex was a real nasty piece of work and after I found out he was abusive too, I decided to do a bit of protection work for my Aunt. I created two sachets and anointed them with Protection oil and herbs. One was for protection against this loser, the other was to banish him from my Aunt's life so he couldn't be a negative influence in her life anymore. I called upon Aine, Goddess of Summer, Sovereignty, Love, Flame, Sunlight, and who is a Protector of Women, especially women who have been abused. Aine and Brighid often go hand in hand, and I think They see each other as a type of surrogate sister, as Aine is said to be the daughter of the Sea-God Manannan Mac Lir. Whatever Their exact relationship is, I often see Them as two sides of the same coin as both are Fire/Solar Goddesses. It's a similar relationship between Bast and Hethert-Sekhmet, if you want a comparison.
Moving on, I blessed each sachet with fire, thanked Aine, and ended the ritual. In two days time, my Aunt and her now-ex broke up after a really bad fight. Because of her already fragile mental health, while my Aunt knew intellectually that this was a good thing, emotionally she was a mess. I'd already decided to make a healing sachet for her when she had to be taken to the E.R. a few days ago.
To make a long story short, she had a pulmonary embolism and there's a nodule on her lung. For whatever reason, when she went on BC pills she neglected to tell her doctor that she's diabetic. Combine that with a very sedentary lifestyle and struggling with her weight, and it was a perfect storm for a blood clot to form.
In all honesty, she needs every little bit of help she can get. Her BPD has gotten much worse, to the point where it's practically resistant to medications (it doesn't help that she doesn't really want to get better), she mentioned several times that she'd be better off if the PE killed her, and her eyes just look….lifeless. Like there was no emotion, no spark, nothing. Just a psychic black hole. Her skin was ashen and there were bruises under her eyes. It was heart-breaking.
My Mum's going with her to the psychiatrist to discuss treatment options-she might have to get ECT once the pulmonary embolism's taken care of and once they determine if the nodule's cancerous or not. So yea, I hope they can find a good treatment option that helps her with her current depression. I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I will do my duty as a Witch and try to help her anyway I can. Even if it's just sending good energy her way or including her name in my nightly prayers, any little bit helps, especially in this kind of situation.
Coming late to this, but how is she now?
ReplyDelete--Erin (starrykitten from BPAL forums)