I was in a tangled emotional situation for a few months, and it took a thwack upside the head from a few Gods, some vivid lucid dreams, and my soul-sister telling me I really needed to just.let.it.go. before I decided to move on and get out of this really stressful situation before I lost my mind and my heart was broken.
Being a spontaneous Aries, I performed a ritual on the fly last night to "cut the cord" so to speak so I wouldn't have any lingering psychic connection to the other person and so I could move on. I set up my alter, grabbed a candle, my Boleyn "B" necklace (I feel a strong connection to Anne Boleyn. In a lot of ways, I think there's quite a few similarities between us, and goodness knows I have her personality, haha), two rocks, thread, scissors, and my Athame.
I wrote my name and the other person's name on a piece of paper, taped it to a rock and a crystal I had on my alter, and tied the black cord around them both, to symbolize said connection. I asked my Gods, my Blessed Dead, and the Elements to break the connection, and also to empower my B necklace with protection (to help keep me from getting hurt, just in case there's still some lingering psychic tendrils). I cut the cord, and let it sit in my cauldron over night.
This afternoon, I purified my B necklace over fire, and used a candle to kindle a fire that burned the tape, the pieces of paper, and the thread--thus ending the psychic connection to the person in question.
I won't lie, it was tough. I started crying in my circle because I know I'll probably never see this person again. It's over, once and for all. I had my iPhone (what I use to take the pictures of my ritual set up) and started to play a few songs I had uploaded on there that reminded me of the situation. It made me cry even more, but I felt cleansed and more balanced afterwards.
I'll also be wearing my B necklace tomorrow, in honor of Queen Anne Boleyn and also as a reminder that like her, I too am a strong woman.
When I was reading this, I actually thought it was Thea who had written this up until I saw your tag on it! She and I have had to do some cord cuttings as well in recent months, and it seems like a lot of people that I know are doing both conscious and subconscious cord-cuttings as well. I'm sorry that you got so upset during the ritual, but I'm glad that you realized the importance of letting go and that you felt better afterwards!
ReplyDeleteThat seems to be the theme of the past few months. I wish things could've worked out differently, but it's said everything happens for a reason. Besides, Life's an adventure and I can't wait to see who I meet next.
ReplyDeleteIt helped that today was absolutely wonderful-my Aunt Laura adopted a Shih Tzu named Cody from the Love Wanted Pet Adoption, on my urging. She's really happy with him, and he loves Honey, her other dog, already. Can't wait for him to meet my Esme! Once I find a full-time job, I'd like to adopt a German Shepherd, in honor of the Jackals. I know They'd like that and Esme would enjoy having a big dog to boss around, hah! She'll be ruling over our next dog with an iron paw. ;)
I realize this is way late (I know I told you guys I'd be MIA, but I still feel bad!), but I wanted to offer hugs. And also to say that, if this is in relation to the situation I think it is, I think you made the right decision. It's always hard to sever a connection that means a lot to you, though, and I'm sorry that you had to do it.
ReplyDelete(And, totally beside the point, but that is a gorgeous necklace!)