Spell For Courage

Hey all,
I apologize for being MIA for a while. Things have gotten pretty rough lately, as I lost my part-time job teaching belly dance at a local gym and I'm unemployed again. To make a very long story short, I'll give you the Cliff Notes version:

Basically, I was on Craigslist just seeing what (little) legitimate jobs were recently posted; I just happened to click on the Salon/Spa/Fitness category and lo and behold, there was an ad for a new belly dance teacher….at the place I worked at. They had already given rumblings of displeasure about the low attendance, but in all honesty, that's due to their nastiness and lack of good customer service skills, plus the high rate just to join said gym but I digress. Plus, I had been having some very bizarre lucid dreams that I'm pretty sure were premonitions so I wasn't entirely surprised. I just thought they'd be more mature but guess not.

Anyway, the next day I went to print it out so I could talk to them about it after the staff meeting last Monday and there was another help wanted ad for the same position. I printed both out, and planned to confront them because I was furious. It's not the fact that they wanted to get rid of me, that's not a big deal, it's the fact that instead of discussing the low attendance with me face to face and us talking it out, they went behind my back in an incredibly sneaky manner and posted the job ad. That is not cool.

Moving on, I'd recently bought a lion head's necklace at the 5th Avenue Fair and had planned to wear it in honor of the Eyes of Re. I have anxiety, usually brought about by my PMDD, so I decided to do a ritual to turn my new necklace into a talisman for courage.

I called upon my Mother Bast, Aset, and Hethert-Sekhmet to give me courage and to help keep my anxiety down and anointed it with Protection Oil from Practical Magick in SI, as well as Bergamot oil and Dragon's Blood oil I picked up at Pagan Pride Day this past September. Did a bit of energy work and voila! A brand spankin' new talisman.

This past Monday, I took a half of a Xanax to calm my nerves, donned my new talisman, took the print outs of the ads and confronted them about it. They knew they got caught in a lie and kept making up some silly story about how "oh, it was for a SUBSTITUTE instructor"…which made me laugh,because if that was the case, they would've included it in the advertisement y'know?

Then the owner tried to placate me, as he viewed me as some silly empty-headed girl he could manipulate, but what he found out is that I'm no kitten, I'm a lioness and I have claws to boot. Next he tried the condescending route, but when that didn't work, he gave up the ghost and I quit. Yea, I need a job and a steady paycheck, but there's no way I'd work in those conditions or with those incredibly sneaky people ever again.

Trust me, being unemployed is no fun but the Gods do not give you any more than you can handle. They have made me strong, and I have faith that They will lead me to the right job where I won't have to deal with people like that, a place that won't trigger my anxiety or PMDD the way my last full-time job did, and where I can put my strengths (namely writing) and my intelligence to good use. Everything happens for a reason, and bigger and better things await me.

Dua Bast! Dua Aset! Dua Sekhmet-Hethert!